Kiwis Corner

A short update on my life, wich is extremely un-interesting most of the time. But I guess some of you are interested in what happends in my life anyway.

Sighsten passed away a week ago. I came out in the morning to feed the boys and he was laying stiff and cold on the bottom of the cage. I think that his immune system was low since he was so very very skinny, and probably got something that his cage-mates could handle. I’m calling the vet on monday (it’s been closed over christmas and now it’s the weekend) so they know I’ll be coming in to get him cremated. He’s on the balcony wrapped in a towel. It’s so cold out that I haven’t needed to put him in the freezer.
  I’m not sure that Gunnar has a tumour, but I don’t know what the lump is. It doesn’t feel like a tumour any more, over the last few days it has turned very very hard (most tumours are a bit spongy). At least it doesn’t seem to hurt.

We’re finally moving on tuesday. I’m looking forward to getting it done. I hate the packing and un-packing but it will be nice to have a bigger place, with a room for me to withdraw to when it gets to noisy. Niddes friends are louder than mine, most of the time. I like them, but some times I get overdoses of sound. 

I’m thinking about calling the psychiatrist again. I’ll wait some more since I hope it’s just temporary- but the nightmares has returned and I’m back to thinking about what would happend if I met him, what I should do if he turns violent and things like that. It really really sucks, it was so nice NOT to have that in my life, and finally feeling like I might be strong enough to go back to Gotland to see people. But as I said- I hope it’s just temporary and that it will go away when the stress from the holiday and moving goes away. 

Ikea tomorrow. We’re buying a shelf for the bathroom, nightstands and frames. L and P are coming too, it will be nice. 

So it’s been a while since I wrote. Alot and yet not very much has happened. Lennart got pneumonia and had to be put down, I miss him alot. Gunnar injured his paw but that has healed now, but he has a tumor too. Not a very big one yet and it seems to be growing slowly, but still. I’ve been home from work about a week now with the cold of doom, my sinuses being visited by a team of builders. It’s christmas in two weeks, and we move in three.
But at the same time life slowly moves forward, snow comes and goes, I work eat sleep and repeat. I wish I had some deep thoughs to share with you, but I don’t. Oh! One thing! This is great! I’m no longer in therapy, and is now well. I no longer have PTSD! It’s awsome! I’m still on meds since you have to take it slowly when you quit them and all, but it feels very good and has been over two months since my last anxiety attack. YAY! *happy dance*