Kiwis Corner

As the title implies, I’m wondering. I’m wondering why we get new scheduals atleast twice a year at my job. I liked the last one. Why are we changeing again? I’ve e-mailed and asked.
But to me it seems odd.

So much is happening, and I wish I could write about all of it!
I’ve tried for a week- but I haven’t sorted it all out myself yet. But I’ll try to get the big picture down.

I went to Ödesväv II (a larp) and came back home. I had so much fun and so much to do! Unfortunately I got burnt in the sun so I had to sit in the shadow behind the tent for two days, but people came to see me there so it was ok. We went swimming in the lake almost every day, and in the evenings we partied. We cooked over open fire, slept in a big tent and didn’t have to worry about the real world for a week. No internet, no cell-phones, no stereos or cars… It’s so wonderfully relaxing! I can hardly wait ’till next summer!
But I’m glad I played human and not an elf or something. All that make-up in the heat must have been hard to stand. Also, I bet us humans had more fun!
I think I might have been flirted with too, the last evening at the post-larp party. But I don’t know. I suck at interpreting that kind of things and I’m to afraid to make a fool of myself to dare to do anything if I’m not completely sure. Also, I don’t really know how to flirt back. Or really, how to flirt at all.

My boys has a new cage. It’s big and beautiful! And they seem to love it. I just have to modify it a bit, put in some more hatches and stuff to make it more accessible to me when I clean it and try to get the boys out. 

Yesterday I was at Fredriks moving-in party. It was great! I had so much fun! I’m so glad he moved in to Paulis apartement so I can get to know him!

This is the last evening of my vacation. Tomorrow it’s back to reality again. I would like to have more vacation ofcourse, but really it feels good to go back to work to. My only fear is that I won’t survive the heat while doing stuff like walking the dogs and cooking… But if I’m to trust the metrologists I’ll just get wet. It’s supposed to rain ALOT for a week or two. Poor people in Visby…
I felt really bad for all the people who had come to Stockholm to celebrate Euro-Pride. It rained on the parade. But my sources states that it was fun anyway and that the mood was really good.

I have to go shopping soon. I’m to attend a wedding the weekend after next and I need something nice to wear.
The wedding is at the same time that Lina celebrates her birthday It’s sad that I can’t attend both. I wish I could clone myself! Atleast I found a great birtdaypresent!

Time to go. Bye! 

It’s true. It takes my friends away. Or, it did when it was new to the market. I still wonder how my relationship survived those first critical months since WoW was launched a couple of weeks after we started dating. Probably becaus we lived in separate cities and I’m good at entertaining myself. The fact that Nidde is great most of the time probably helps too.
   When I first moved to Uppsala I got to know a few people. But then WoW came, and they just didn’t have time for IRL interacting anymore. They had to raid and go on quests with their guilds and level and farm gold and get mounts and stuff. So I was pretty lonely again. Thank God for Hoffa, and Nidde. And Emma, who I studied with. But she moved away and became a glass maker instead.
   I thought that WoW was more or less down to acceptable levels in my life. The most addicted friends had slipped away in to their addiction, Nidde has pretty much come out on the other side- the occational raid every now and then but it’s harldly even once a month now due to work and friends and other games. But then my best friend got to know this girl. Who bought my best friend WoW. And now my best friend doesn’t have time for me. She hardly even answeres SMS (texts) anymore. She says she wants to see me and talk to me, but when I try to contact her she doesn’t reply. I guess she’s busy when I’m free, and is free when I’m at work. Last week I went to visit her and look at the baby rats (who were adorable, ofcourse!). We had had trouble finding a time that suited both of us since I had my sucky week when I work evening and day every other day and I think I had a doctorsappointment on my free friday. Anyway. When me and another friend came, the WoW-friend was there. Wich would have been ok, had they not been playing for half of the time I was there.
   I truely sincerely hate WoW. It really does take my friends away from me. True I have made new friends- but that doesn’t matter! I miss her! It was supposed to be her and me against the world! And now she’s gone. I hope she comes back soon. Some times I wonder if I did something wrong. If I hurt her somehow that I don’t know of or if she grew sick of me and uses WoW as an excuse. Most of the time I know (?) that that’s not true.

If you read this (my best friend, you know who you are <3), don’t be sad if I don’t call or text very much. It’s not encouraging not to get responses. But when you feel ready and have gotten over this infatuation, call me. I’ll be here, waiting.

 

I’m in an emotional rollercoaster today. Unfortunately with more downs then ups. The day started bad with some kind of cramp in my knee. Odd, never had that before. Took about half an houre to get rid of. Could finally go back to sleep. Odd dreams. Nuclear bombs, snake bites, fight in a church, everything was just fucked up.
Alarm went of, got out of bed. Hungry, but couldn’t eat. Talked to August a bit. Finally able to eat, a cinnamonroll, a couple of mini bananas. Life sucks. Surfed the web. Took a shower. Didn’t help. Work in 30 min. Have to eat. Probably another roll. Hot food disgusts me today and I’m out if fruit and yoghurt.
Boss called, staff meeting nex tuesday. Good, we’re gonna talk about who does what etc. Will get a chance to tell my bitchy collegue how it is. That I’m not lazy- but I can’t do things in a place where I’m not. I can’t clean the apartement if we’ve been out all day etc. But she thinks I should. Does she know something I don’t? Can she stop time, or clone herself?

Need to get dressed and eat that roll now. I don’t want to. Wish I could stop eating, maybe then I could loose some weight. But I know that’s a bad idea so I won’t. I promise. I hope you have a better day then me.  

In todays Expressen you can read the hunters version about the brutal bear attac that they were victims of. The poor hunters are still hospitalized after the agressive bears mauling.
   I’m not an animals right activist. I believe in eating fuzzy, cute and dead animals becaus I like the taste. I enjoy the feeling of fur, and I’m pro animal testing for medical puposes (NOT make up and other unneccesary things). But honestly. If someone tried to kill me, I’d be pissed too. And I’d probably try to hurt them if I didn’t find a way to flee. What’s the big deal? We all know that trapped bears are dangerous. They are BIG. They are STRONG. And they have vicious claws and fangs. So seriously. Get a grip. You tried to kill the bear first.

I’m cleaning out the closet in the hall. I hate cleaning, it messes up my head completely and I get really really tired. Hello Asperger. But
atleast I’m almost done with my stuff. Nidde gets the honour of doing his own things.
I’m gonna cook lasagna for dinner, but right now I feel like sleeping for afew houres instead. No can do since the bed is filled with stuff.

Hedda left us a week after Hickory. I guess she really missed her sister. They had been together since the womb. It’s really sad

I had lots of stuff on my mind, but now it’s blank. I’ll try again later.

I’m 24 and I just ran away from home for the first time. Lina says that when you’re an adult you don’t run away- you take a break. But it feels like I ran away. But I had to call in sick from work, and I was really really upset. I don’t know what to do. I really need to talk to Nidde, but before I can do that I need to calm down some more or I will end up in a crying, shivering pile again.
Tomas I talked to Nidde and told him I’m sleeping at Linas place tonight. But it worries me that I haven’t heard anything at all from Nidde. Do I have something to come home to? Does he want to solve this or does he want to break things off becaus I’m acting like a crying emo kid? Can I really be sure that he’s not mad at me?

It’s sad that I’m missing the dinner with August, I was looking forward to that. But I’m really in no state to be nice and social. But maybe I can call him later when dinner is over and ask him to make a cuddle pile with me. He’s god at that.